Yay, she is eating more today!
(We have some bad news)
She managed to walk from the room to the nurses’ station!
(We have some bad news)
Her labs look a whole lot better today. I think the bleeding has stopped.
(We have some bad news)
I think we may be able to move her out of the ICU today.
(We have some bad news)
She looks like she might be able to be discharged today!
(We have some bad news)
The cervical cancer is back. It’s stage four and its’ metastasized to the liver. There is nothing we can do. We can give her palliative chemo which may give her another 3-6 months or she can go palliative.
She chose to go palliative. She came home and passed away months later in her bed. I was 16. She was 41. She was my mother. October 18th will make 18 years since she passed away. It still hurts just as bad now as it did then. Fuck cancer. Fuck how it destroys people. Fuck how it destroys families. Fuck the pain it causes people. Fuck how it attacks old and young. Fuck cancer.
Barely Sane Nurse 
shaking my head…this is so sad! Even after so many years, the pain of loosing someone you love never goes away. My best friend died last year of cancer surgery complications. Cancer is cruel to everyone! Peace & Prayers! Christine
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Every year when it comes around the pain starts up again. It makes me more understanding of cancer patients and what the families go through.
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I have known many who have passed away due to cancer. I feel the same as you when it comes to hearing the word cancer. x
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It’s the worst. It really is.
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Yes, it is.
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This is beautifully written, and it almost made me cry. I’m sorry to hear you lost your mother when you were 16 and she a much-too-young 41.
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Her loss pushed me into nursing. She made me into the nurse I am today.
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